So, I haven't posted in a while. Put on my senior prom dress today. Could not zip the back up all the way, but almost. I got it because my parents have saved it all these years. They also saved lots of letters that I have sent them over the years. Last night I read some from when we first moved to Ithaca and some from when we moved to Taylor, MI. Very disturbing for some reason! Had trouble going to sleep. God, I was such a nerd.

Back to the prom dress, one of the letters said that I had lost some weight and was back to my pre-pregnancy with Laura weight of 102. I am now fluctuating between 117 and 119. Since I gained 30 pounds both times I was pregnant, that means I am like, at a 2/3 pregnancy weight. Really, it is all fat on my stomach, butt and thighs (not to mention upside-down-bowling-ball-calves). Surprisingly, although I ate my face off in RI, I did not gain any weight. That just proves that moving around during the day instead of sitting at a desk can make a big difference.

Went for a 3-mile walk around the neighborhood and then went and bought a copy of Middlemarch to read and then got a package of about 15 blueberries for $5, and 2 engagement calendars.

I love my engagement calendars which I have been writing a few lines in every night for years. It is very very surprising how you can go back several years, pick a page, and actually remember doing whatever it was! I have a new idea and that is to write down at the end of the year all the really important things that happened. Just off the top of my head for this year:

had grandson for a week
mrh's company was taken over and he is not working
parents moved out of condo and into independent living
daughter pregnant

It would not be too hard to go back a couple of years and pull out the important things since I usually * or _ them.

I bought an engagement calendar for mrh and want him to start writing. It only takes a minute to write a couple of lines each night.

Have not been riding my horse too much since instructor is on a trip. She said I could ride every day when she was gone but I've been either working late or just too tired from the trip to bother. Plus the horse is not exactly fun to ride because I can't get him to do anything. Last sunday, we had a nice lope going and some actual trot it's not teaching me anything. I think I will get out of this lease as soon as I can. I am just not a good enough rider to teach this horse anything. Rode the other night and several kids were running around and shrieking and distracting my already uninterested horse. Hope to go early tomorrow and catch the group that goes out on a trail ride which he is good at and enjoys.

I will never wear a dress again or uncomfortable shoes or pantyhose or any of the crap I have to wear to work. If only I can quit my job. It's all I can think about. I don't care about any of the stuff I have to do. As my co-librarian in NY said yesterday,

"We are too young to retire and too old for a career!" how perfectly true!!! we don't give a rats ass about what we are doing.